Becca - I'm sorry to hear the news of your mother's death. Seems that many of us have unresolved issues with family members. I, too, wonder how I will feel when my mother dies. Although she didn't give me what I needed emotionally; when learning about her past, I couldn't expect much more and I forgave her. Its not too late, Becca. Even if you cry for all the words left unsaid, you can still forgive her in your heart. For your own sake, let her go in peace.