They probably weren't trying at all, Brett, and that would be part of why they became so revered, same as you. You have it in you, too, whether you realise it or not. Can you imagine what a thrill it will be for your grandchild to read about your grand adventures in Guam of all places? And, marrying a beauty from Japan?! IMO, you are carrying on the tradition of your grandfathers, uncles, etc. and need to give yourself some credit and time.