That's just being human, Naemanson. You're comparing yourself with some ideal set up by others, and its INTENDED to make you fail. Be what you really are, only you can know that. There's no drug in the world that can make you more yourself than you. Only countenance change if the real you is so undesirable that there's no alternative. If I had a compulsion to murder children, it would be only sensible to make me take the drugs. If I'm merely not a textbook consumer, sod them.