gillie and i had a call from beaswax at 2:15ish and since then my head has been in the shed. i feel as if i have lost a brother. colin was always there when you needed him. he was always the first to help. whenever he was giving out hugs i always joined the queue. i've been too busy today to let go but i im now sitting here feeling devastated that i will not hear him again saying "helo daff" as he taps me on the shoulder. colin i love you and will always miss you.