I am totally disgusted by the crap, trolls, and flames that now dominate this site, however, of all subjects relating to musicians, substance abuse is a prominent issue. How many folk musicians have killed themselves through their abuses? Many.

John Evans ... I apologize for the village idiots who have dominated your thread and made a mockery of your "confession."

I'm fortunate, in that I don't smoke and rarely drink, but I've been touched by both in my personal life. I've been told that admitting it the beginning. If this is where you have chosen to "admit" your addiction, my prayers are with you. If this is the only place you can bear to talk about it, I hope we can give you some support.

Please take Aine's advice and find a group. There, you will find support from others who have/are walking in your shoes.

Please keep us posted.

Are you a musician? If so, what do you play? Do you sing?

I'm celebrating Pesach (Passover). May you find your way out, as well ... shalom ... moonchild