John: thanks for your confession,it took a lot of guts. I lived in a bottle for 25 years. 18 years ago I was able to give it us. I developed a great faith in the Lord and AA. My friends in AA were great at helping me and supporting me. My wife was also a tremendous help. She stuck with me through it all. But my greatest help came from my faith in the Lord. For you it might not be the Lord. In AA we talk about a powere higher that we, whoever or whatever that might be. Get into an AA group. Go as many nights as you can a week. And use your sponsor. They are a God-send. Good Luck.

Banjoman