Donuel old buddy, I personally believe that your post is a load of crap. Here's why.

No sane person makes bad decisions. In any of the things you list did you say to yourself, "Geeziz, this is a really stupid ass thing to do/think, but I'm determined to fuck up so I'm going ahead anyway." That's nuts. We do the best we can with the knowledge we have at the time. Later it turns out to be a truly awful decision but so what? NOT making a decision is far worse.

Successful business people will tell you that probably 75% or more of their decisions are wrong and they need to make adjustments and additional decisions. When they hit one out of the park it was probably the last in a list of "bad" decisions.

If you learn from what you do and do not repeat things that don't work, you're a success.

Spaw