I would like to make a suggestion Azizi.

Think about the whole question of "WWAS" (what would azizi say) and ask what it is and why it exists and for whom it exists.

There may be instances that have contributed to you being characterised in this role, but the idea that you could be considered any type of arbiter on the subject of "how black people feel", like the black ambassador or somesuch is in my opinion unhealthy for you and for the site.

Race and Ethnicity are important issues for you, and most likely as a result of your lifetime experience. But your passion for that subject needn't define you on its own any more than your race should define you on its own.

They are obviously both parts of your identity, but like your sexuality, they only take up a proportion of it.

But ultimately, the dynamic of you as some kind of source for advice on "how the blacks see it" is something that can only develop if you participate in it's development.

You may have to accept some responsibility for that image of you/yourself.

So perhaps you should have asked "is it difficult ... " or something like it ... I can't think of a way of making it a discussion about anything other than how you feel.

Perhaps it's difficult to be Azizi on the mudcat ...

My question to you is, is it any more difficult on Mudcat than anywhere else?

I don't mean to be insulting but it reminds me a bit of a Character in the british comedy sketch Little Britain.


Daffyd is the self proclaimed only Gay in the village, and is frequently disappointed at the lack of controversy surrounding him.

People like you here Azizi because you're a nice person with a big sensitive heart and a wise old intelligent clear creative mind.

Well ok - perhaps I should just speak for myself ...