I wish I could have been there.

Philosophy:
Often, all you need to grab an audience and calm your nerves is the belief that you HAVE to sing the song. I did that at Rick's memorial. If it had just been me singing a song, I would have messed up, but I had to do it. I didn't want to let anyone down. Spiritual imperative can work magic, and it sounds like you had it, Jacqui.