I like to think I'm competent enough for the events in which I participate.

Proud of it? It's difficult - one way to look at it would say not really, although I'm pleased I can join in and believe (or hope) my contribution is worthwhile and I am not ashamed (though I have been at times I've done things not giving a sh*t).

By that way of thinking, I guess to feel really proud, I'd need not only to be rather better than I am to take me to what I might think an acceptable professional performance standard but to be a lot better than that. It'll never happen but I guess with music, the only way I would be truly satisfied, would to have to be at virtuoso level.