Thank you....been crying off and on since then...she was a cockapoo terrier mix....a bit of a turd at times, but very loving...i couldn't even do it on my own....the vet said it might be time...and i rang my mother...she came right over to offer me the support....and we talked more with him...and i said to do it....fuck...i feel in a way I betrayed her...but I know that I did the right thing...