You know, PJ, many people have been telling me that it's OK to be angry, but nobody has put it as beautifully as you.
However, I haven't gotten to the Anger phase yet. Denial ended when the gavel banged. My "professional" (Can I just say Shrink and not upset anyone?) says that the pain in my chest is rage, but it sure feels like sorrow and pain to me. I am not, I don't think, ready for it to feel like rage. But I know that progress will be made when it does... so... Any good rage songs out there? All I can think of is I Will Survive, which is only really rage at his daring to think he could come back, not at his leaving.