Alice I can relate very much to what you are feeling.
What I do when I feel great loss is remind myself that I am like a mountain and feelings are like weather systems that come and go. I just hold on tight until the feelings pass knowing there will be sunshine and warmth when the winds change. But in the meantime it is a wonderful feeling to know this place does exists where you will find comfort and friendship from people who really do care about you.

Bonnie