What memories you bring back to me, kat. My father was a horse trainer so we always had lots of horses. From time to time there was a 'human' horse and once, just once, there was Trueboy. I know the feelings you're going through now- I don't think a person ever gets over it- but finally you tuck it into a secret part of your being and treasure it. He'll be waiting, and so will Martini...Ebbie