They are using you Shelly, they will tell you it is for the good of your country, they will use the love you have for your country to advance their own agenda, for their own greed their own power. Then you wake up and look at yourself in the mirror and no longer know who that person is any more. That is what hate does, it takes away everything you love everything you care about and pretty soon it leaves you alone with only the hate. You make me cry, you can stand up and say I am not going to live my life this way any more. You can change it but that decision is your and yours alone. You don't know me but this is perhaps the most important few lines you will ever read. It always ends bad young lady ... you have your whole life waiting for you ... you can change your country and you can change the world one person at a time, but you can do it in a manner that will make yourself and others proud to know you can call you their friend. These people are not your friends .. they care nothing about you ... only want to use you. Stop it please, I have seen it a thousand times before with gangs and there is no difference here, none. Don't throw away your life for this, you are worth so much more.