Shelly read what I wrote and then read it again. This is not what God wants for you nor your country wants for you. He gave you a gift of music, you have the ability to use that to make life a better place but people you choose to be with in life will either make you a better person and the world a better place or will take you to a dark place you never thought you would be. The choice is entirely up to you.

I pray you make the right one. There are people that will help you get out of the place you are at now and will help you with your music. Again the choice is yours