Well Paul, if this is the first time you had dreams like this I would get rid of your supplier. The hash you are getting is laced and you need some good shit man. Then again, take a trip down memory lane and watch the movie "Up in smoke" or get the book a "Yakie way of Thinking"(sp.) by Don somebody. Forgot the author. Great stuff to help you relax the mind.
Now if you are serious about this dream than I suggest that you do need help. There are lots of avenues out there for you. Most to just take your money and run because they are all fucked up as well. A psychiatrist maybe be the answer but then again there is only about 1% that are any good and the rest all need help. Nope, on further thought, you best just stick right here because this is where you will get all the help you need.
Sleep well.
Beer (adrien)