Thank you Bill, moon, Jeri, kat, and especially the dear Mudcat voice that just called me on the telephone...

Your support means so much. You're right, Joy would understand, and I am (albeit selfishly) doing what feels best for *me* by being alone tonight. Trouble is, funerals are for the living, and I feel like let my friends down by not showing up today. I'm usually pretty steady about this sort of thing-- often at my best in a crisis or when taking care of someone else. Somehow today I just couldn't get far enough out of my own head to get in that mode. Maybe 8 days camping in the redwoods and making music has warped my head a little...

Anyway, I called Joy's house tonight and I'll see many of them tomorrow. For now it just feels pretty good to sit on a log here at the Mudcat and listen to you guys chat around the campfire. I'm awfully glad there's a place like this to go.

pj