I once heard a story from Ireland that sometimes the Little People will give a struggling musician a choice: to play to their own satisfaction, but noone else will like it, or to play to satisfy other people but never to be content themselves. Perhaps you inadvertently made the second choice [the Little People are now very techno-conscious and often send emails at the bottom of which in text size point 8 it says: if you do not want to receive from us the gift of playing to satisfy other people but never to be content yourself please tick this box] and everyone else enjoys your playing.