Lizzie, I think of Andie every night. I dreamed of her last night. She and her little sister were hit by a lorry (semi), because I was too busy doing something else and not paying attention to them. So this morning is scuppered by guilt and wretchedness.

I don't know the Oyster Band. Had a listen and doesn't appeal but that may be my mood. I don't feel much like singing these days.

Thanks for thinking of me anyway.

Ed, I am on 75 micrograms of Levoxothyrine which doc says is enough. Funny before I was put on thyroid replacement decade ago, I was much thinner and fitter. I was just freezing cold and had headaches all the time. Since on the replacement I put on weight and in rotten mood quite often, still get headaches.

I have always been something of an insomniac since childhood. I have very vivid dreams which I want to avoid. I used to walk and talk in my sleep up through my early 40s. I have awakened more than once still in PJs and sitting on either front or side porch with car keys in my hand.

Don't think I have sleep apneoa because I don't fall asleep in mid activity. I get drowsy and then get up and move about to shake it off. I only snore when I have a head cold.

I do feel oxygen deprived. I find myself suddenly in drawing deep breaths as though I have forgotten to breath. This happens during normal waking hours too.   Also happened since childhood. And I cannot bear to have anything cover my face. Bed linens, scarves and even my hair have to be kept well away from nose and mouth. Though now in bitter cold weather, I have to warm the air through thin scarf before breathing in or my lungs burn like hell. This is only in the last 3 years or so. Maybe the swimming will help with this.

TSO thinks I am exhausted and in bad mood because I am in constant pain with the RA. True I am in pain most of the time, but I can usually ignore it (thank god for good reading on Mudcat among other activities). And at the moment, inflammation is very low. Rheumatoid factor only 26 in November, last Feb it was 93.

Just got to face it... my body and brain are fucked. And I am hypersensitive. But I am going to look into those spectrum bulbs and maybe some aroma therapy or ionizing bulbs and look for ways to produce endorphins and make conscious decision to count my blessings on a regular basis.

McGrath - brilliant idea about the SAD therapy spas. You should start a charity, see if you can get a grant to get started.