You don't look INTO the light, you slat it across your field of vision.
Tam, what you are describing is all probably adrenal exhaustion. Raging and/or ebbing cortisol levels (it's a cycle). Low-cortisol phase makes us shocky.
Does anyone here have the file I've sent on that in the past? I'm not sure I can put my hands on it ASAP. PM if you have it please.
Tam, the centerpiece of the treatment is supplements, most esp. PANTOTHENIC ACID. Big horse-sized pills of it, not the little dinky amount in "stress tabs" (or anything like that's more usually on the vitamin shelf). Cannot get the remediative amount via food, trust me.
Look around local shops (bu phone!!!) for 400's at the cheapest price, and lay in a stock while I look for that doc. OK?
Do that and so cheap SADlights and you can get yer whole life back.