Michelle,

Thank you for:

More directly, I am afraid that they will have trouble getting the IV in. I am afraid it will burn. I am afraid that I will be sick to my stomach for the next 6 months. I am afraid that it won't work. I'm afraid I'll cry and never stop just looking around the treatment room.

This is a good spot to share, now, with Hardi as well.

In the vein of my earlier post, I would say this: by the time you read this you will probably have experienced many of the following:

"I was afraid that they would have trouble getting the IV in, and the did, but I handled that well. I was afraid it would burn. It did but discovered that I could handle that quite well. I was afraid that I would be sick to my stomach for the next 6 months, but I realized that all I have to deal with is Today, and today I felt great and [insert the day's blessings]. I was afraid that it wouldn't work but then I realized how blessed I am and how much worse other folks have it. I'm was afraid I'd cry and never stop just looking around the treatment room, and then I remembered all the times Susan and other people have affirmed and welcomed my healing tears, which God sends me when I really need them, though the Holy Spirit which is also called the Comforter."

This is how I pray for you. I'm quite confident that any piece of it that is what you need to hear next, you will hear, and that you will shrug off the rest for a time it may or may not come back to you.

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What does "lilyfestre" mean, BTW, and what does "Petal" mean?

~Susan