Dear mum,
I can't believe it's been nearly a year. I think about you every day but I try not to cry because I know you wouldn't like it. Today though I am crying because the mothers day adverts have started on the tv and I miss you so much. I wish I knew where your ashes were so I could talk to you properly.

I thought you'd like to know that Paul and I are trying for a baby, and if we have a girl we are going to call her Eva, we haven't decided on a name for a boy yet.

Dad is coming to visit soon which I am looking forward to.

Talena is getting married on the 27th. She has been a really good friend over the last year.

I'm so sorry I was a horrible teenager. I wish we could do it all again and I wouldn't be rude to you, or worry you by harming myself. I would just appreciate you and love you.

Happy mothers day, I hope you are safe where you are.

All my love,
Rosie xxxxxxx