Michelle,
Keep in mind that sorrow is one of the stages of grieving. Maybe you have reached it. ut I suspect that maybe your "feelings" are just a bit closer to the surface right now. Happy tears. Sad tears. Grateful tears.
They are all good. And better times are ahead. Keep focussed on that baby soon to arrive. COme September this will all be behind you.
M
Did Pete's package ever arrive? I may have mis-addressed it. M