Jack, thank you for your input! Staggering drunk...I felt like an elephant with not enough in the stun gun to put me out for awhile last night. The night before no problem; like Animaterra/the Bard says...great sleep. Last night, I think I took it too early and missed the "sleep by hour" 'cause two trazOdone (tks) and 1.5 xanax later, I was still awake at 330a! Great nap this afternoon, though. I have odd reactions to meds. I was titrating down on the xanax, don't like it, it doesn't help with sleep, really, and it's our goal, the docs and mine, to end use of it. It got me through the horrible panics. Now, the biofeedback will take its place, esp. in getting me some natural sleep, but with the past three weeks, esp. this past one, it's been a bit tough. I am not sure what to do, tonight. The dosage is 1-2 at bedtime and I do need more sleep, but the dry, cotton mouth and potential for no sleep may preclude any of it.

Bobert, I have heard you. I've spoken to some connections and am seriously going to look into some *medicinals* through my docs. I have other docs' I can call if need by...lookit the things ya find out when ya ask!

My dear son, may he benefit from the fact that I've been through too much repetitive crap with my bro., so he is now hearing from me, "We've already talked about that, save it for the therapist. I won't go there, again." He has been crying, a lot, and asking for hugs, which, of course, I love to give. I am gratefull he reaches out to me, I am protective of myself, though, for all good reasons, imo.

Thanks for being here and listening, m'lovely friends.

kat - oh, good things today! MY Rog took me to see the beginning of the orchards flowering AND we walked to Morgan's house and back. BIG deal for me!