I suspect he was in a crazed state, perhaps caused by chemicals, perhaps by mythology, perhaps by Catholicism or images of a violent parent. Whatever the precipitating element, he knew he had to be a hero, and was speaking to the Seven Spanish AnNgels when he made his deadly run, destined to a desperate, heroic move.

Like all heroic moves in this day and age, it did not lead to heroism and it did not lead to death. It lead to an awkward place where he is in a public hospital ward being healed of a bullet wound and facing criminal charges.

There is no crime greater than forcing a lawman to commit violence. They train to do it, dream of it, fear it and lust for the opportunity of it, but drive them to it and your name is mud and you are in deep doodoo. This is paradoxical, yes, but it is the way of the world.

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