Thanks for the update Michelle - keep on telling us how you feel - like crying, it's good to get out even what you see as negative thoughts. Let the Universe take them and leave you free to heal. the fact that we are all still here every day should tell you something about how we see you.

After Kendall's latest health scare I was sent a card stating

LICENSE TO BITCH AND MOAN - you earned it!

Very apt and I would say the same to you. Have you thought that maybe others see you as a Bette, because you keep most of the tears for times when you are by yourself?