You know, Michelle, I wouldn't say this to most people, but when I look at all that has happened this few months (and I hope you'll take this in the spirit it is intended) I think the big C "Cancer" is the best thing that could have happened to you. You've blossomed, you've grown in so many ways, and you've looked at so many things you never considered before. Your beauty has come through in so many more ways than it did pre-cancer. You're so strong now! Does anyone else know what I'm talking about? No wonder Pete wants to go through with the wedding, dress and all. It will be a thing of beauty, all around.

I know that I became a much better parent after I was diagnosed and had the surgeries. Suddenly I could focus on what was REALLY important. And for all that you have down days because of the chemo, you're coming through it like a champ, with flying colors, and I'm so proud of how well you're doing everything!

This adoption is great news, and perfect timing. And because you really really know what is important, I know you'll be an even greater mom now than you would have been in the past.

I'm reminded of Viktor Frankl's book Man's Search For Meaning (don't buy it from Amazon, find it for a couple of bucks in a used bookstore somewhere). It's a wonderful slim volume that talks about how diversity (to put it mildly) can help you find yourself.

Good luck with all of this!

Maggie (Stilly River Sage)