6:43am. I am up, showered, clothes laid out, meds laid out, bed made, my stuff in the room is packed up....all that is left is to actually get dressed, have some breakfast, take more meds (oh my word, why is it that steroids have to be SO DAMN bitter? Gag, gag, sputter, ick, gag some more). MUST PUT LIDACAIN ON BEFORE 7:30!!!

I have a friend traveling with us this time. She's a doll baby with a heart of gold. However....she likes to be chatty and loud in the morning and right now, while I need to focus inside and gather my strength together, it's a bit much. She is trying to help and I love her for that but what I need is just a few minutes of quiet and rally Team Lily, you know? Can't be upset with her...she's trying to help.

So...if anyone reads this before 9:00am, here's what I need today....lots of postive thoughts for a CA-125 tumor marker test that falls in numbers. I need my platelet count to remain steady at 113 and not fall any further. I need a nurse who is kind, gentle and GOOD at getting the port needle in on the first try. I need to take several ouji breaths....it's not necessarily the situation that leads our breathing but rather our breathig can lead us into a situation in the mode we desire the most. I am searching myself for calmness, a sense of humor and my intelligence which I KNOW is in here somewhere. I need a Dr. who isn't going to yell at me because I gained 10 pounds in the last 3 weeks. I've been starving...what can I say? Salt. Salt. And more salt please. Can't get enough.   I need prayers and positives for all good things.
    Time to get moving. I look foward to seeing all of you in a few hours (I have my laptop with me!)

Much love to all,

Michelle