Being pissed is a very good sign - it shows that you have, in no way, given in to all of this. I agree with Sins - if you can arrange for the people who did sign up to get together and do some deep breathing, simple yoga, whatever comes to mind. That would be you taking control of both your condition and the outside forces that, as we all know, can tend to make you feel helpless.

I have told Kendall, each time that he has had to go through yet another procedure, that, for a while, it is all about HIM. That does not mean that we aren't aware of other people's problems - sometimes it makes us more acutely aware of what others are going through - but, at a time when doctors and drugs seem to be dictating what one can and cannot do, it is good to know that there may be people out there concentrating solely on your personal needs.

Again, it can give back a certain amount of control, when that seems to have been taken out of your hands. Why, when you are having to deal with myriad symptoms as a result of operations or medication, should you not be spoiled, as it is clear that your lovely husband is doing. That someone else closer to you should choose this time to get snippy and to blame you for it is unbelievable. NOT your problem. Just enjoy the care and attention being given by those who really care about you.