So I get it that it's ok to cry but I'm sure it gets old for everyone around me.

If nothing else, this cancer is going to teach you the difference between useful crying and not-useful crying. Guess which kind you have been doing? (How else do you think you are getting through it all?)

And BTW no one I know of around here finds that your crying "gets old." :~) Maybe there was someone in your life once upon a time who acted that way..... not too many, tho, nowadays, I bet.... if you look around when you do it. See any smiles? That is people approving it, being delighted with you in it, and/or being glad for you growing IN the tears.

Damn it, you can do this. :~) Somebuddy I know said that once. :~) DAYum, mayum!

~Susan