...sheer elation, a little fear and hesitation and relief....

LF, gotta tell ya, that is totally normal. Cancer/Chemo has been your "identity" for a significant period of time. It's always hard to give up something that has kept us alive, and that we have identified with-- no matter how nasty it was, that's how human beans are wired-- little bit of Stockholm Syndrome there Cn CS can expand upon.

Just be kind to yourself on all levels of all feelings, as you adjust to letting go of the chemo schedule-- the moment they tell you that you can. JTL will help with that! Some of that will be under your conscious control. Some of it will not. Just ride the waves with as much Grace as you can, and let the rest [the self-evaluating] go.

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BTW there are actually people who say not to keep the baby by the bedside. Screw that! Keep him where you want him. He'll tell you when close is "too close."

As far as babythread-- YES, and (IMO) best if kept in short threadlengths with new threadnames as he moves thru phases (or you do as a mom).

~Susan