You summed it up very nicely, Michelle. I know you'd have gotten through fine if the earlier adoption had happened, but this one has happened, and you'll be fine with it also. It'll be easier this way, all things considered, certainly. Too bad for that child in foster care. I hope he/she gets lucky and finds long-term loving care.

I've even thought about looking into it - my kids are just so great, maybe the luck would hold out and I could have a good influence on another child as well? Some of them actually prefer single parent families, or parents with no children at home. Amazing how versatile the system is when there aren't enough foster families around.

Take care this next week or two, get through them one day at a time. If ever you feel despair wash over, simply put Jeremiah in his crib and give yourself time to work through the chemo talking to you. (Don't listen to the chemo - you'll be fine!)

SRS