I am very sorry to hear that Lou/Groucho. On the whole, I think you would find that the majority of Mudcatters do not mean to be hurtful and are generally open to new ways of thinking and learning.I will send you a personal message, in case you do not read this. There are some classic threads which I think you might be interested in and which may help you think twice about leaving.
Sincerely,
katlaughing