Conrad
There is a well known phrase.
When you are in a hole....Stop digging.
There is no one (as far as I can tell) on this thread who agrees with you.
You have been given advice as to where you are wrong in your thinking, sometimes inappropriately (for which I apologise BTW), But the reality is that you just will not listen to the truths that 99% of posters here have told you.
Don't you ever think that you could possibly be wrong?
The rest of the world seems to be reasonably content with the way that we understand and appreciate music. Deal with it!