I'm with you about the drugs. I only take the Xanax when I absolutely can't function due to panic and when Pete is home. I will NOT take it when I have Jeremiah here by myself. I don't like to take it at all, really. It doesn't ever fix what has caused my panic but rather allows my body to have a break....slows my heartbeat, steadies my breathing, makes me sleep....then when I wake up I get a second shot at dealing with whatever.

I have talked to someone locally but I think I'd like to make an appointment with someone who deals with cancer patients on a regular basis.....preferably someone who has had heard You Have Cancer themselves (not that I'd wish that on anybody...but my thinking is just that they might have a more clear understanding of the panic if they've been there themselves). I think this is part of the path....

Michelle