Dear Michelle

I know you are anxious about your health. Completely understandable given what you have been through. Hope you are also looking into ways of managing the anxiety as it is an unhealthy stress.

I am not not advocating complacency re how your body feels. Do all you can to define and treat the causes of pain. Just pay special attention to avoiding the worry about the pain.

I know it is very difficult. Recommending that you immerse yourself in activity is pointless, as it is clear from your posts that you do keep yourself extraordinarily busy. Having a little one about the house is certain to help with that.

Maybe try to keep your focus completely in the moment when you are busy, rather than letting the niggling worries grow into a black hole that sucks up everything in your life at the present moment.

Rereading this post makes me feel a bit too preachy naggy.... but it is sent with much love and concern to the Michelle you need to be. The person you are for yourself and those who love and need you.