Good Luck Jon, by your posts it seems that you are able to understand your problems......many are not...so you're half way home.

Try not to be too hard on your father, as his ranting is almost certainly a symptom of his concern for you.

I have some experience of this in my own family and your dad probably loves you more than life itself....he will be frightened and frustrated, but he will always be the best friend you've got when things get bad......All the best Ake