sophocleese, I think you might pay more attention to your dreams as they are giving you great guidance. A mile high cliff is a great obstacle to be overcome, but the city beside it with the high towers offer a much greater state of conciousness if you put the great effort into letting go of whatever it is that is causing your depression. You want to make the jump and cross over like everyone else but haven't gotten up the courage to do so yet, -- we all love to hang on to our misery but as soon as we let go, the 'bridge' appears and we can go on to greater heights with a much greater state of conciousness and understanding. Driving around in the car trying to make up your mind is the meandering way you allow you thoughts to go on and on without any constructive purpose. When you become aware that you are dwelling on a depressing thought, change it. Say a prayer for someone you know who is ill or having problems. Or, pray for the kids in St. Jude's or any other childrens hospital. It is only by helping others that we can help ourselves,-- I know, I've been there too. Lots of love and luck