It still hurts losing the 3 of mine 2 cats and a dog. The youngest cat was killed in tragic circumstances and my older cat was always constantly looking out for her not knowing she wasn't going to come back it was just too much to bear. The older cat some years later watched my youngest pet dog pass away, this time she was more aware that there was a problem with the dog. The cat held on for a few years later and on until 18 years old she was tiny but so strong not wanting to go and give up her life until it got to the point that she could hardly stand, eat or drink. She died more or less the same month as we got her. They were 3 good natured animals best companions I've ever had but somehow I don't think I will ever be that lucky to find anything like that again.