Well, OK, you've got your kick in the pants. I had some thoughts though, maybe they will help.

First, YES on what WW posted, I did that, it was a huge shift. Let me know if you need help doing as she suggested. I love pulling resumes out of people who may not know quite how wonderful they are or how much they have accomplished or learned. (Open offer to anyone. Barter something for the help.)

Next. OK. House concerts!!!!!!! See threads on how. See me for another idea if you want to do Christian ones.

But maybe the bigger questions are, what are your dreams, what would you like to be doing, and what are the steps to get there? The first step right now which you could actually take? Steps to sustain you as you do work now you may not love but which will move you in that direction? It takes longer if you don't start.

And what are they trying to tell you , these things you do that don't go well for you? What is the underlying lesson there that you can look to, as you leave those patterns of behavior behind? Oh I know, "they" were a**holes. They probably really were. But... what did you need to learn there, that you kept going back into those situations?

~S~