For a long time after daddy was killed I didn't dream about him, and I wished I would because he couldn't be alive in real life so I wished he were alive in my dreams... then after several years I awoke suddenly from a dream and *saw* daddy turn into someone else, so I think I *had* been dreaming about him but my mind turned it into someone else when I woke up, to keep me from the shock of him being dead *again* (which I did have every morning for a long, long time)...

Then I dreamed about him showing up places unexpectedly, still alive, with stories of the CIA hiding him...

Now when he shows up in my dreams I know he's dead but he's there anyway, sometimes I have to explain that to people...

But it's been 28 years as of the day before yesterday. I am still looking forward to having a regular dream in which he appears normally. It would be nice just to have coffee with him or something.