During the period of despair I went through a number of years ago (as I decribed above) I found that I just didn't have the courage to take my own life. I wanted to, but somehow I couldn't do it. This might mean that I wasn't sufficiently distressed, or that I was too cowardly. Maybe those who do ultimately end their life are braver in a way. What we need to discover is why some teenagers draw back from suicide, yet others go ahead with it, even though the suffering may be identical in both groups. Is it that they have more determination in their characters?