(((Megan))), I've been thru the membership blues. (Several rounds!) Best approach is just take a break from the Cat-- maybe even a long one-- and consider renaming your membership at some point. And while on break, reflect from your own viewpoint about how to manage your new posts to aim for the results you'd prefer to get from them. In light of your values and what you expect from yourself accordingly. And let the rest go.
All the above is much harder than it sounds, and if you want to correspond my PM box is open. (It can be in email if you don't even want to see Cat-stuff for a bit.)
(I say this in deliberately generic terms, with absolutely no idea what has happened-- I have no dog in the fight.)