I have just come to an end of a period of intensive work over the last two months.

Over the last 40 or 41 days, I have had one day off (including weekends).

I have had to work an average over that time of more than 60 hours a week, in the last two weeks, it rose to 70-80, and in the last 48 houra, I have had to work about 40, on sunday alone 22 hours.

I have met my deadlines, keeping going on strong coffee and adrenaline and today I finished work at 5:30pm .

But.....

Now that I am no longer under pressure:

(1) I can't rest
(2) I have passing moments of exhaustion but not when I want to rest, e.g. while shopping.
(3) I have had 2 beers tonight hoping that they would act as a sedative, but they have just messed me up even more.

In the next week or two I know I will be back under pressure catching up with my normal work, and I can't take any time off (apart form the weekend when finally I can rest but my flat is in such a mess as a result of not having the time or energy to do any cleaning, etc....

so......


HHHHEEEELLLPPPPP......