Having had to do the same thing, I know what you and Jacqui (and Mary, of course, who was his Aunt)are feeling. Even though you know it was the right thing - it just hurts, and there's no taking it away. Acceptance comes, but there's always an empty spot in your heart. I do believe, as a matter of fact, I'm sure of it - that Seamus felt the love that surrounded him as he peacefully passed on. You eased him through his transition - I think we'd all hope for the same, when our time comes.