Michelle, I just read your description of how you're feeling on facebook. I wish there was some way we could absorb that and help you feel better - just remember we're here holding your hand (virtually, at least!). It sounds like the port is more of a problem than a help - if you want me to do any research in my medical databases at the university, let me know. It's a shame to get over the cancer yet still feel bad because of a remnant of it. Say the word, and I'll do the research and send PDF via email or can print and put in the postal mail.

Maggie