I crabbed my way through the entire day...simply exhausted. I did do 3 loads of laundry, cleared 3 tabletop areas of ALL clutter (GONE!), emptied out a magazine rack which I have a tendency to save forever (not today) and made a yummy, healthy dinner which was ready when my Love walked in the door. He surprised me with a large bunch of bananas (which Jeremiah and I love), a BIG bag of green grapes, 8 pounds of our favorite apples and a large box of strawberries that smell like April and 7 1/2 gallons of my favorite beverage (water...my favorite brand)which means I will not have to leave the house all weekend if I don't want to. YAY!

He had sent me an email during the day that said, "When I get home, I'll take the baby so you can have some me time." Sooo sweet but as I thought about it, I decided that's not really what I want or need. As a result, I left him a large pink sign on the front door so even before he walked in the house, he would see it. I wrote, "I love you and there are 3 things you need to know. 1. I am sick and I need rest. 2. I do not need or want me time. 3. I do want and need WE time. :) XOXOXOOX"

He was all smiles and that made me feel good because since I've been doing my very best chug chug along these last 2 weeks, he's been picking up the slack.

I can't remember if I already posted this or not but my oncologist has offered to let me have my tumor marker tested again next month instead of waiting 2 months. I have accepted his offer. I'm still not happy with the rise I saw yesterday but there's nothing I can do about it. The numbers go fluctuate for many reasons and my cancer was caught EARLY and I've been told that the chance of a recurrence is slim. I know it will always be in the back of my head but today it came stomping up loudly. With me being sick, over tired, over stressed and a very long (but WONDERFUL) day yesterday...it was just too much.

I've taken my night meds along with a percocet for my painful ear (I never knew they gave that kind of med for an earache...but then again, I never knew my ears could hurt that much)and had blissfully fallen into sleep after Jeremiah had his good night kisses and Daddy put him to bed. I woke up, had some of those outstanding grapes and am now in bed. I had turned the electric blanket on this afternoon when Jeremiah went down for his nap.....his nap was very short so the nap I had planned for myself didn't quite work out the way I had planned....anyway..I didn't turn the blanket off...so now...in our unheated bedroom, our bed is soooo toasty warm.

Oh yes...this is MUCH better. And my cold is feeling MUCH better....could be the meds. Anyway....it's looking like my start time at the Y could begin as soon as Monday.

I'm looking forward to that as I am on a mission. Pete and I are going to renew our wedding vows at this year's Relay For Life and I want to be in better shape than I am right now. My dear friend Cynthia is going to be standing up with me. :) It makes my heart soo happy.

OK. Goodnight friends. I'm sorry for growling today. Sometimes it's all just too much.

Sweet dreams.

Michelle