Bobert,

   Being awake and in pain sucks...especially during the night. Does anything give you relief? A certain position maybe? Put on some music that relaxes you, grab a book or do something that interests you. On those many long nights when I had pain from my chemo, I spent time making montages online. It was fun and in the end I had something neat to show for it. Or sit and cry. I did plenty of that too.

I don't know if you are a praying kind of guy but there were many, many nights when I couldn't sleep so God and I would chat and eventually I would drift off. And I slept better alone during that time. I love my husband but I needed to have room to thrash around, toss and turn and be miserable if need be. He was a good egg and didn't take it personally....maybe that might help.

We are all so different. Know that you're in my thoughts and prayers.

And you know what else helps me sleep? Vicks Vapor Rub. True story.

Love you friend. This too shall pass.

XOXOXOOX

Michelle