Two highly recommended books, "The Secret Doctrines of Jesus" and "The Mystical Life of Jesus." Both can usually be found at the used books sites, such as Bibliofind. The author is H. Spencer Lewis. The were written in the 20's or 30's, can't remember exact date, so the vernacular is a little formal and odd, but they shed a lot of light, IMO, on some of the things brought up in this thread.

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